2 February 10

I am frustrated today, things like flies sitting on my face and crawling in my ears and nose is driving me mad, equipment that I’ve been waiting for in anticipation for months, is not working properly – I feel I can’t ask for help because the only person available at this time is Douw, he has done so much for me that I fear I’ll cause “Empathy fatigue”. I’ll wait for Monday and hopefully the electrician from the factory [on the farm] will be able to help.

So without my mouth switch and decent typing ability, let me paint… an hour and a half later:

Tried, didn’t get much done, only attempts and corrections. Then…

Friend arrived, Martin and I got stuck into Back/Label Whiskey, I needed it. Spoke and listened, enough to know that I need to calm my anger/frustration. It was only a ½ a bottle, next we drank [I more than Martin] ½ a bottle of cheap Queen Elizabeth only, Martin couldn’t sleep over, so moderation for him. Salute.

I on the other hand needed escapism. Life sometimes needs whiskey colored glasses, if that upsets you go here, click on the highlighted text…

Ok, now that the choir boys are dismissed,

It pisses me off to be so reliant, so fucking dependant! Hat in hand sucks especially when it comes to basics, basics like conversation, mourning, idea sharing, frustration release, assistance, touch…

Yes, it’s a fact and I realize I must accept the fact and move on, I get it!

A big difference between Theory and Application however!

So if I fail at times, those that criticize, fuck off, you are what you hate… truly.

I got good friends that would advise me to chill, be easy, it will all come to pass… yes, I agree but there is …

A big difference between Theory and Application however!

So, between the two Gross perceptions that dispense advice, I lean toward the later.

Okay, gonna watch Wayne's world... 19.35

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